"Being married to an addict, I had to convince myself I really did love her or I would not of been able to put up with all of her awful behavior." - Tony
- When a couple separate, it is often the non addicted person who struggles the most emotionally. The reality of what they have been through hits them and the emotional flood gates open. They are not only dealing with the loss of a relationship but also the reality of all the emotions they had to deny and all the behavior they had to justify to stay in the relationship.
"In my sobriety I began to practice forgiveness and honesty. But it wasn't until I found my hidden bottles and lies that my recovery began."
- The tendency to minimize in recovery is as significant to recognize as when drinking. Initially, there may be a desire to move forward and with the least emotional impact. Truly feeling and acknowledging what you have done and how it has effected yourself and others is key to success in recovery.
"The needle caused no pain that I didn't understand. It was the deeper throbbing of emotion that drove me into the depths of hell. A shake the needle could not still. A longing I couldn't inject out of my heart." - a heroin addict
Let me tell you a story of Alcoholism my most feared Disease. It's a sickness within myself that brought me to my knees. It came to control my life and took everything I Loved. It was a power I couldn't keep away no matter how much I pushed and shoved. It led me to believe I was at my best when in reality I was at my worst. It caused me to avoid family by deceiving me to think it should come first. It was destroying my life and was causing me nothing but Insanity. It was then I closed my eyes and asked for help from God Almighty. He helped me open up my heart to release all the pain. Now He's directing me in my recovery back to being Sane. JD
"I looked for pain in others in hopes of gaining an understanding of what the hell I should of been feeling. I tried to mend others wounds in hopes of learning of the reasons why I bled." - K (Heroin, sober 1 year)
"I am not an addict but I love and try to support someone who is. For me addiction means constant heart break. It hurts to the core of my being watching someone I love destroy themselves with little ability to stop them. It's a process of acceptance about the situation. When I photographed the series I was able to exercise non judgemental compassion and acceptance to those I photographed in a way I still have not been able to do in my personal situation. It was a healing process to explore and release the pain and frustration I felt at my situation." Cheers, Claire Addiction Pictures
By Claire Martin
"I would go to a party and eat whatever pill was going around, but distrust a doctor's prescription for my anxiety. I would let a friend of a friend of a friend who was stoned drive me around, but distrust the guidance of the treatment center counselors. I would walk downtown to an unknown apartment with unknown characters to score, but distrust the motives of those sitting in the rooms of NA." - Dylan
"I was so focused on rehab and recovery that I forgot about my life."
- "This is my second year out of rehab and, after a lot of relapses, I finally realized something great the other day. As I sat there watching my son play soccer for the first time in two years, I realized this is what I want to be doing ...... I want to be a mother again." - Jen
"What are you afraid you might see or have to do if you have faith again?"
"For me, as an addict, lack of faith was a selfish act. Only I mattered. I only had to worry about myself. No responsibilities to others, no expectations or standards to live up to and no judgments from God. To have faith brought fear that I might have to see or do." - Brent