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Never Dumb Down God

"The newcomer is told to believe in anything, just believe, because anything (even a doorknob) is more than they got now..... However, my sponsor always cautioned me to never dumb down God. That it is our own selfish nature that tries to box everything up in neat packages and it is our pride that makes us think we can." - N

My Plan

"I try not to get too happy because I am afraid I will get complacent. My plan is to keep a degree of sadness in me." - G

Man Up!

"Hey Dad, I understand sobriety is important but the idea if someone drinks that they can't be a father is ridiculous. Man up! Going to AA and trying to quit drinking does not exempt you from your responsibility - me." - A son

Tripping

"How have I been living? I have been tripping over life.
...... Fall down and get up. Fall down and get up. Fall down and get up." - C

You And I

"I have always felt like this pathetically disgusting person, so destroying my life with drugs was not a far jump. I created loneliness. I found something wrong with everyone because I was afraid of being judged. Through my recovery, I slowly learned I could be so much more. I found myself by the grace and strength of those around me. Never underestimate the power of what is meant by you and I." - E

My Daughter

"When I look at her picture my regret deepens,
When I feel alone the most this needle is sinking,
And as my blood gets replaced with a feeling I used to love,
I wonder if my daughter forgot her father,
Like I did the one above.

I thought the first step was easy,
yet I still think I can manage,
Me being a father,
My addiction,
And how failure should be an acceptance.

My doubt grows more as does my days sober,
Sometimes I wish id never got high,
But instead gotten over,
My selfish pleasures of escaping my head,
That leads me to addiction till eventually I'm dead.

So I pray for understanding,
I pray for a better life,
I pray those hands will move on those numbers,
So I can finally know its time,
So my daughter doesn't have to say that I wasn't the dad she needed,
While her heart is growing without me.

My arms are being mistreated,
The poke makes it harder,
The dope makes the distance farther,
But twelve steps gets me closer,
To my arms around my daughter." - C.C.

A Hunch

"A hunch is an angel tapping you on the shoulder .... A second chance." - An Old Drunk

- Because of self doubt, many in recovery may pass by opportunities or "hunches" and instead settle into the safety of complacency.

Faith And Fear

"I once heard that if one has faith, then fear cannot be present. I disagree strongly. I believe that fear holds faith. They must exist together. It is the moving past fear, not the absence of it that strengthens a life with faith." - Jack

Relationships

"What I learned in recovery is that you have to treat yourself like you want others to treat you. I couldn't keep degrading myself by using drugs and expect my relationships to be any different. "

Obstacles

"Funny how in recovery I focused so much on all the obstacles in my life. Obstacles were never an impediment when I was drinking. If I wanted to get some alcohol I would." - G

Sobriety

"Sobriety never looked like a good option because I associated being clean with withdrawal. I never had enough days in to feel anything else but crappy."

Unknown Moment

"Be vigilant. We can be highly successful in sobriety but it is the unknown moment (one in which we are caught off guard and untested) that will define our recovery." - Vic