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4/30/17

People

"Muscles don't dance. People dance.
Eyes don't see. People see.
Brains don't want. People want." - @TheCleanSlateAddictionSite

4/29/17

Wished

"I wished every night that he would just go out and smoke a lot weed. Weed made him tired. When he was asleep he was safe." - A Parent

4/28/17

Fires Of Hell

"Only when I quit did I realize how important it is to find that hole in your soul. The devil was deeper than the drink and I kept the fires of hell at bay with a gulp and a swallow." - M

4/27/17

Dark Shades

"Every great piece of art has to have some dark shades." - M

4/26/17

Journaling

"When journaling, let your thoughts flow freely. It is the different moods, tone and pitch of what you write that will, over time, show you the melody of your life." - M

4/25/17

Genuine

"A recovery story isn't genuine until it has some shame attached to it." - J

4/24/17

Options

"May sound fucked up but sometimes just the knowing that I can drink or even kill myself is enough to give me hope that there are other options in life and I'm not stuck." - E

4/23/17

The Hypotheticals

"I'm so good at being anxious because I spend all my time analyzing the hypotheticals." - A

4/22/17

Boundaries

"My boundaries suck in relationships. I catch feelings easier than i catch a cold." - M

4/21/17

Change

"I can't change what is going on, I can just make a change from here." - C

4/20/17

Exact Moment

"Like it or not, the purpose of every previous thought and action has been to lead you to this exact moment." - B

4/19/17

Mentality

"If you got a guy who thinks recovery is great and that he's feeling awesome all the time be a little worried; that's not recovery mentality that's using mentality. An addict thinks things should be good even if they shouldn't." - R

4/18/17

Angel Of Reason

"...I’m not going to make a case for my selfishness. I’ve heard some addicts argue it wasn’t them, that it was the, “disease” – As if the “disease” somehow removes the angel of reason from their shoulder. Regardless of whether or not I have a disease, I made conscious decisions that hurt those most dear to me. I was at the wheel. Not anyone, or anything else. When desire didn’t rhyme with what I knew was right, I’d try hoodwinking myself on some bullshit rationalization that would make it easier to kick sand in the faces of those trying to help me.

So here I am today – my escape in a hostile landscape. A paradise in the desert. And all I had to do to get here was be completely selfish...." - Phoenix 1980HD.com

4/17/17

Blame

"Blaming your drinking on your problems is like blaming the devil on the dark." - F

4/16/17

For Her

"I have to remember her behaviors are not at me they're for her." - T

4/15/17

Humor

“Be careful with humor. It should be wielded like fire. If you’re not using it for warmth, you’re using it destructively. - Phoenix 1980HD.com

4/14/17

"Get" Him

"My brother overdosed at a rehab and they never took ownership as a program. Instead of trying harder to "get" him, they just blamed him for not getting their program." - L

4/13/17

Recovery

"We have to make what we are doing bigger or we are swallowed up in the grief of what we have done. To give our struggle a higher cause can pull us up from the despair." - A

4/12/17

Hurt Again

"I was numb, regulating my chemicals and emotions for years. It feels so good to hurt again." - M

4/11/17

Convincing Others

"I knew you finally got what recovery is about when I heard you say, "Screw it, I'm tired of convincing others of my sobriety."" - An Old Drunk

4/10/17

Doing

"Convince them of your sobriety by doing, not talking." - R

4/9/17

Worth It

"It took 10 other struggling junkies to convince me I was worth it." - R

4/8/17

A Family

"AA was not a group to me, but a family. It was the first time I felt that others accepted me unconditionally." - S

4/7/17

Salt On A Wound

"To me AA was like pouring salt on a wound that just needed time to heal on its own." - M

4/6/17

Ironically

"When I sat on top of the hill contemplating suicide, you could say a moment came that saved me. I had been drinking all day and if it was not for the fact that I had to pee so bad, I may have pulled the trigger. I'm alive today because I stood outside my car pissing as a park ranger pulled up. Ironically, drinking saved me." - B

4/5/17

Sobriety

"Sobriety at all costs only works if you like yourself." - F

4/4/17

Pride

"Treatment's pride often misses the obvious thinking they know someone before they even walk through the doors. But you see, I've never met an ignorant addict." - An Old Drunk

4/3/17

Allowed

"Recovery was not possible until I allowed pain back into my life." - T

4/2/17

Immune

"Alcohol wasn't a problem for me until I began to believe I should be immune to pain in life." - T

4/1/17

Doubt

"When in doubt keep your feet moving." - E