"...I’m not going to make a case for my selfishness. I’ve heard some addicts argue it wasn’t them, that it was the, “disease” – As if the “disease” somehow removes the angel of reason from their shoulder. Regardless of whether or not I have a disease, I made conscious decisions that hurt those most dear to me. I was at the wheel. Not anyone, or anything else. When desire didn’t rhyme with what I knew was right, I’d try hoodwinking myself on some bullshit rationalization that would make it easier to kick sand in the faces of those trying to help me.
So here I am today – my escape in a hostile landscape. A paradise in the desert. And all I had to do to get here was be completely selfish...." - 1980HD.com