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Moments

"I just need to minimize the impact these occurrences have on me... I don’t mean minimize their feelings, but rather, control the impact...  Historically, these types of things could send me into a tailspin." - Phoenix

Truth

"It used to come and feed on me. And on my family. I was powerless to stop. Truth." - @twelvedrawings

A Meditation

"Take a deep breath......... while holding your breath, put all your fears, hurts and anxieties in it, keep holding your breath and when you feel you cannot hold it anymore, let all the growth, strength and positivity you achieved swell up in it.
Now blow it out.... Feel the air leave your body, mind, heart and soul and watch it rise up and dissipate into the sky. Imagine your breath rising higher and higher into something bigger and then being swept away across the lands by a gentle breeze only to be breathed in by someone else. What is done is no longer yours.
Now take a deep breath in...... This is all you own, to choose to breath again." - T

Learning

"Asking yourself the question, "What did I learn today?" makes life more manageable by emphasizing learning and growing not winning or losing." - R

Numb

"Addicts and alcoholics are so rarely dumb. But almost all of us have been terribly NUMB. And that is far more harmful to others." -@TwelveDrawings

"Easy" Days

"Damn, this sobriety is real work. Not like those "easy" days of lying, hurting, evading, cheating, fighting, begging, and manipulating." - @TwelveDrawings

Lost Dutchman's Treasure

"The psychological dependency I developed to stimulants was a sloppy attempt at covering up who I really am and avoiding the responsibility of learning to manage my own struggles with my God-given abilities. I did not find the Lost Dutchman’s treasure in the shadows of the Superstition Mountains. But I did find my own." - Phoenix

Something Deeper

"The more momentum I gain, the harder I make it on myself to go back.  I think perhaps the greatest lesson was learning that dependency on drugs was a symptom of something deeper.  I’ve been able to attack things I didn’t even realize were there." - Phoenix

Few Words

"If I formulated an opinion or response it made it easier for him to crush me emotionally. So I kept to simple responses, used few words and coddled the situation." - A wife

Re-scoring

"I've been re-scoring everything and everyone’s value.  I was giving far too much relevance in my life to the wrong things." - Phoenix

Imperfections

"My imperfections allowed me to connect with many beautiful people who I would not have understood if I was perfect." - M

Addiction & Faith

"Addiction is a selfish pull away from God that says, “I know the answer and I don’t trust that there is a better way”. Faith is an acknowledgement of fault and a trust in capabilities for something more. God could be said to be the ultimate faith and drugs and alcohol the ultimate fear." - T

Fault

"The more I drank, the more I became engraved in the thinking that it was other people's fault." - J

Becoming

"It is not just about what you are doing, it's about who you are becoming in what you are doing." - P

Blame God

"Who wants to own the mess they created? Often it is just easier to simply blame God, be angry and continue to drink. To remain angry relieves you from the pressures to change or stop drinking." - T

Real Issues

"I lost my marriage because I was more focused on not drinking than dealing with the real issues between us." -D

Be Proud

"We are all different. We are all human and will make mistakes. Sometimes it is better to follow that voice that resonates deep within you than blindly follow someone else’s rules for “recovery”. It is only you who will have to account for your life in the end. In the quiet of the night, alone, you will know the truth of who you are. You can follow the world by day, but you are the one who has to be proud when you lay your head down on your pillow at night." - T

Longevity

"longevity isn’t simply realized by replacing a bad habit with a good habit… It’s replacing it with a good habit that you can become passionate about. You will always give priority to your passion. If your old habit has to contend with something you’re passionate about, you have a greater chance of beating it. Especially once you’ve built some momentum with your new habit." - Phoenix

Any Price

"If you've gotten to the point where you believe you "need" substance use, you will never change your motivation to do it merely by focusing on the costs of it. People will pay any price for the things they need." - @TheCleanSlateAddictionSite

Passion

"... I make a distinction between addiction and habit. As far as I know, it isn’t clinical, etc, – It is simply how I slice it in my own mind. The moment I was past physical addiction, I was no longer an addict. At that point, it became a matter of habit, and a habit can be replaced with a passion – And every one of us should have a passion. And why limit ourselves to one? Especially when kicking a bad habit makes room for another one. Our passions are what we identify ourselves with. They are a source of pride, purpose and happiness. And they make kicking bad habits a lot easier" - Phoenix 1980hd